lovely - billie eilish ft. khalid (slowed n reverb)

☾ i hope some day i'll make it out of here,
even if it takes all night or a hundred years ☽

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[jimin-jnmd]

"the mirror is my best friend, because when i cry it doesn't laugh."
-Charlie Chaplin

[hareetclowa]

“The person that tries to keep everyone happy often ends up feeling the loneliest”

- unknown

[quentinpost]

“Don’t take life so seriously no one’s gonna make it out alive”
-the Joker💔😴

[TreFancy]

To anyone reading this: you are worth it. you are enough. you are loved. Your thoughts and the way people treat you does not define who you are. You are so much more than what you are going through. You are not alone. If you are sad, upset, or mad let yourself feel it, understand it & do what you need to do to be happy. I know this message won't fix everything but i hope this just reminds you of how amazing you are & things will get better!


These are not my words but I hope you spread them.

[jovana]

this song + these comments = perfect reason to cry

[whotheflipismn]

"hurting someone is easy as throwing a rock into a lake, but do you know how deep that rock can go?"

[kyoongbbh]

this..hits completely different when you're completely broken and in pain.

overthinking, crying and stress at the same time is the worst feeling.

[Anjara_records]

"It's different time of pain, when you dont even cry'
- A wise man

[denkikaminari]

Respect our pillows they wiped our tears when nobody else did 😃🙃

[Afzaal-wkhh]

“The sad thing is the person who gives you the most memories, ends up being a memory”- Naruto Uzumaki

[cloudhead]

want to cry...but have no reason to cry...or maybe theres no tears left to cry

[nirajgupta]

I really cried while reading some of those comments😭 and realised not only me many people in this world are so alone💔

[Rz-jonc]

"We are a sad generation with happy pictures"
-Stan Lee

[rihannamikealson]

"One day you're gonna have to stop pretending that everything's ok"
- Elena Gilbert

[noma]

I swear Billlie has enough power to make an onion cry

[prettiestmills.]

People thinks that depression is just being sad but it’s not only that. Depression is feeling lonely even if you’re in a room full of people, being alive on the outside but you’re already dead on the inside, you feel like you’re drowning when everyone around you is breathing, feeling like you’re worthless, a failure, a disappointment, a mistake, a waste of time and space and a freak. That’s what depression is

[harleenaulakh]

"Someday someone will break you so badly that you'll become unbreakable"
-Joker

[evikyriazopoulou]

school: try harder
friends; youre a snake!
parents: never understand you, dissapointed
music: its ok im here

[graceregan]

I feel like this generation isn’t ok..we all seem sad we just don’t know why. We think we are happy but at night we let out our tears listening to music....

[Insanity_Wolf]

Another story? Okay.
So this made me think of my dad for some reason. Borderline genius guy. Sucked up into the crack epidemic. Did a lot of bad things, couldn't keep himself out of trouble/drugs. But at his core. Still a good person, and always acted as my best friend and guide in life when he was around because as he said "he may not be able to be a father figure, but he will always be my best friend". He was also the rock of both sides of our family. If there was a problem, he was there. When everyone was emotional, his shoulder was there for everyone and he never broke.
Fast forward, served time in the military. Some things happened that are in another story somewhere. Then find out my dad has a terminal illness.
The kicker, it was just when he got completely clean. Got a stable job. Cleaned up his act. Ironic. He looked great at this time. Happy, like genuinely happy. Some time goes by and I see him again. His face is drooped and he talks slow with a stutter from strokes and damage to his brain. Then he asks "I know I don't deserve to ask anything of you. But nobody else will be able to make this decision. Nobody else can carry this with them. If it comes to it will you make sure I pass and they not drag this out?" And of course I didn't even think twice about it. Some more time goes by and my mom (they were still friends and close after divorcing) calls me. I get to the hospital and all of my family is already there. The doctors pull me aside and give me the rundown of its unlikely he will pull through and if he does he would be in a vegetative state. I make the call to pull him off life support. Go over the legal paperwork and we are back in the room. The doctor starts to go over what will happen. Everyone starts crying. Some I can see are irritated at me. They cut the life support. My dad opens his eyes a bit and gasps for air. The doctor just confirms it's normal for things like this to happen. Most of my family leaves the hospital after he passes. My uncle (one of my dad's brothers) pulls me aside.
"You can cry, you need to cry, you can't bottle this up."
Part of me wanted to just say "then whos left to pick up the pieces of everyone else if I break too?"
But I just said I know.
I have sleep paralysis and night terrors originally.
But leading up to his funeral I had night terrors of choking him, unable to move. Unable to open my hands. Only being able to look into his eyes as he passed. It made me second guess everything, everything he said. Everything the doctors said. That what if. What if he would have been okay. The wake and funeral were like a blur. What a remember specifically is only a few in my family really talked to me. My uncle still worried about me bottling things up. My cousin saying the same. His brother being the one who took his life when he first came home from the Marines. After the funeral and to this day nobody else from the family talks to me. From what I've been told they hate me for what I did. That I didn't talk it over with anyone else. That I didn't even give it a chance. Truthfully that part eats at me too. Because what if I gave it a chance? Anyhow, thank you if you got this far.