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[adelynelee]

Trust the process. You may not like your content right now, but you being your authentic self is what some of us need right now. It’s hard to feel normal and it’s discouraging when all you see is the glitz and the glam all over social media. I love your content because it’s real. You’ve got a lot of love around the world for you and your family. You got this!❤❤❤

[carolkopyta]

HONESTY! It’s refreshing to see…I’m sorry life has so many ups and downs right now 😢 You being real and honest is a hell of a lot more interesting than the people only posting the good even though they have bad times too! Keep doing you❣️

[CherylAwh]

Bless your heart Renee. I'm so sorry that you're going through such a long rough patch right now. I believe there is value in this content. There are so many people barely holding it together that I think will feel like they're not alone when they see this. You're not failing at life. Every day when you get up and try again, you are winning by not giving up. Some times we win big in life and sometimes getting our teeth brushed is a win. What you're going through is hard, but you can do this. Even if you don't feel it right now, you are so strong and brave. Look at how far you've come. Continue to pray and believe that you will get through it, because you will just as you have gotten through the other tough times in your life. Don't worry about us. I think the majority of your subscribers are here for you - through good times and bad. Sending you love and prayers from Texas 💕

[ChelseaElizabethIZMIR]

Girl I haven’t been able to film any YouTube videos for 6 months for the exact same reason. It feels like right when you start to feel a little stable, another crisis happens. Also, watching all the aesthetic influencers has just become too depressing because I inevitably compare myself to them. Thanks for posting this raw vlog, it gave me hope that I’m not the only who feels like they’re literally failing at every turn🙏🏻🤍✨

[ankitakabra]

Out of all the content we watch online, this is the most real one because that is how life is.
You are auper strong. I have seen your struggles since the time you lost your dad when you moved to new york to try a different career. You are a strong person and we yave seen you fight with every obstacle like a fighter.
Much love to you!

[ambyelizabeth]

Not a normal commenter but I just wanted to come on and say that this video is very relatable, even for someone who doesn’t have a baby, just being open about life’s struggles and knowing that it’s not just you feeling this way. You’re doing amazing, thank you so much for your honesty. It shows that we are all just humans doing our best 💓

[emilyhufit]

Thank you for being so real! It is so hard to be this vulnerable online. You're doing great and I really respect that you are showing what is really going on!

[donnatyler]

Renee…I had postpartum depression so bad I was suicidal. I understand. It was the most awful time of my life. I made it through. I had no support. Single mom. All I can say is you will make it. I did. Didn’t think I would. Very dark time of my life. I cried watching this. I get it. Toughest thing I ever did.

[inesscastan]

Thank you for being so real, it is so helpful to se realness on internet ❤️

[ichwaripradnyadewi]

Thank you. Thank you for posting this and being vulnerable. Thank you for reminding me that i’m not alone. And here i am reminding you that you are not alone. ❤️

[Lydiajean]

I found your channel when I was pregnant with severe morning sickness back in 2020, and your videos was the only thing that calmed my stomach.
I find your content even more relatable now that you have a kid of your own.
I understand the anxiety, I went through it after my first.
You're not losing your followers, you will gain a different demographic because youre a mom now, and thats okay. Your true fans will stay also.

[Faeoftheforest]

no mattter what you post your vlogs always help someone and i hope it gets better for you soon you are such a great human and mom sending blessings

[stephanier]

Be gentle with yourself beautiful human. Your rawness and openness is what brought me to your channel. And I know it's hard and I know life is throwing everything at you right now. You are doing the absolute best you can. Sending you so much love and healing energy your way. You and your family are in my prayers <3

[Kcpelman]

You have got to give yourself some grace! You have come a long way and its not easy but every day is another chance and it wont always be good but you are trying and thats all you can ask for! So proud of you for taking all the right steps to get to the you you want to be!

[somewhatawry]

I’m so glad that you were brave and posted this. It helps to know that this is just reality sometimes. It just fucking sucks when this is your reality. I’m sending you lots of love and prayers. Make that better help appointment. I promise it will help. And if you don’t vibe with your therapist, don’t give up! Love you lots. ❤

[suzannemayo]

I wouldn’t recommend looking for a house right now. It’s just another stressor. Moving because you are triggered by Nova not being there isn’t going to change things. Hopefully she will heal, and you will too with therapy.

[adrienneloffredo]

When Bryson was in the NICU, you had him in the right place he needed to get the care he needed. Same decision for Nova now. Hard and good parenting all around.

[caterinagatta]

Renee I think showing emotion it's so rare and honest and halfpful for all of us that are watching you. Take your time, if you need some time apart from youtube and internet in general, take it ! You will come back when you are ready <3

[sabrinasassine]

Life gets lifey sometimes … I swear that’s the truest thing I’ve ever heard. Your doing great ❤

[veronicaherrera]

I rarely write reviews… but you deserve so much credit for your authenticity on motherhood . I’m a mother of two under two and it was so isolating but rewarding. Your videos help moms like me feel justified. Keep posting you’ll look back one day and be happy you were so honest.