“because this is the moment you realise” x Dark Beach - Pastel Ghost (slowed & reverb)

[ADRDuran]

This is true, after I lost my grandma I never felt the same. Despite my success, as a cyber patriot finalist, Cisco advanced, advanced and honor classes, having side hustle, being a example of a young man, having a loving family, extended family, and a significant other.

Their will always be something broken and it can never be fixed for even the deepests or perhaps weakest of scars leave their mark.

All I feel is emptiness nothing has made me happy ever since. What I loved to do doesn’t even interest me. The only thought I have now is.

Why?

[Ice_Cube-ej]

those dead and empty eyes that suck you into the abyss...

[x_topt_x]

the moment your best friend likes the game you really hate, and your long and nice relationship is just fading away

[zaiya.uchiha.archive]

Something cant be fixed but its a Part of me, Like a scar

[Steox]

as I have a relapse of everything I would like to talk, because although I have a small group of friends, family I can't say anything and I pretend that everything is ok, about 4 years ago I had slight stomach pains, and sometimes diarrhea resulting from it only and exclusively when I was at school, nowhere else, only school, and so it went on, with time it all started to intensify but somehow I managed to get through 2 years with constant fear and stress that today my stomach would hurt and I would come home, I would fail again, I would let my mom down. I said many times that it was not a physical problem, but a mental one, no one believed me. Over time, everything intensified, my stomach ached more and more often, I had diarrhea, more and more hours missed, then days, then weeks, constant life in stress with only one person, my former partner, made me somehow cope, but until the breakup came, just as I built her up at the beginning, in the end I destroyed her with my behavior, which I did not understand, I thought about what could be his reason, my brain denied this thought but yes, I come from a toxic, narcissistic family, because of all this shit depression states appeared, then depression everything went even further, I can't get out of bed, I can't do anything, I have neither the will nor the strength, school went even further, leading to failure in school (I failed in the last year) and now it's happening again, all this shit that fucked me up, neurosis, and this diarrhea, as a result my psyche is in ruins, after breaking up with my only the person I spoke to, literally at the same time two calls from my parents saying they were getting a divorce, because the situation at home was so fucking hard, and depression made me a wreck, I can't be like I was before, I can't be anyone, I took medication, I go to a therapist, I stopped taking medication on my own, but I still go to a psychologist, although I have no hope here either. I just want you to get tested, because this shit is so cunning that if you skip it for a moment, there will be no rescue. Even though I am already a fallen fortress, I hope you will manage to escape from this faster than anything

[aghiles-------------------]

When you lost it all, and decide to end your suffer .

[moniqueratkins]

Scary. To. Your point is that the only way to stop 🛑 it would involve an increase to your salary if the government doesn’t have a

[DeadTechno]

My heart isn’t in it anymore. I’m just done, it’s all broken.