On My Way To Hell With Religion As My Guide

In this episode of Deep Believer, I share how I Was On My Way To Hell With Religion As My Guide. I thought I was heaven-bound until I was given an unforgettable, yet life-changing dream!

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[JasonLewis]

I was so consumed with judgement in my young Christian life. I was obsessed with exposing everything I could about every ministry and person in my life. I convinced myself, "oh I'm just exposing unfruitful works of darkness". When in reality I was walking in those unfruitful works. I began to exalt myself and lower others without even consciously realizing it, I began to put my convictions on others and treated them as absolutes. I was a Pharisee thinking I was the most righteous in the world, when in reality I was so consumed with pride and was grieving the Spirit.
Then the Lord reminded me of this scripture.

‭‭Luke 18:10-14 ESV‬‬
[10] “Two men went up into the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. [11] The Pharisee, standing by himself, prayedthus: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. [12] I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I get.’ [13] But the tax collector, standing far off, would not even lift up his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me, a sinner!’ [14] I tell you, this man went down to his house justified, rather than the other. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”

I've never felt so much conviction, it made me sick. But I didn't do anything with it. I continued on my ways. And God broke me shortly after, and He humbled me and it hurt bad and I was mentally tortured for months, but instead of turning to Him, I relied on myself.
The past year He has been working on me, and showed me all my hypocrisy's, all my self righteousness and pride. But again I didn't let it go, and I fell so deep into self-hatred trying to run from the truth God showed me, that it felt like there was no escape from the chains I put myself in, I was at my lowest point ever. And finally I realized I can't do this, without the Holy Spirit. So I prayed for weeks and weeks for God to break the chains of pride that held me, to break the chains of bitterness and self hatred, to free me from myself. And in January of this year at the Passion conference, He broke those chains. And he freed me. And now I realize I can't not do this, But the Holy spirit can, and if I submit He will do it, If I keep my eyes on Jesus and off the world I will be free in Christ!

I rejoice with you sister knowing the Lord set you free as well. And it was a blessing to share what the Lord has done in me with whoever reads this. God bless you.

[dlm]

I think we've all been a pharasee sometime in our lives. This testimony was very helpful to me. We can judge, look down upon, criticise, while claiming to be a Christian. Let's clean up our own backyards. Pray for forgiveness and pray for healing our thoughts.

[joshuaadams]

Powerful testimony. I was saved at 8 years old and Jesus appeared to me in my mothers kitchen. I thought I lost my testimony because I back slid years later. But God’s grace called me from darkness into his marvelous light

[MariaPerez-hljs]

The holier than thou attitude that most of us display sometimes instead of drawing people to Jesus takes them away from the Lord.

[dorothymatthews]

Yes, Jennifer, it is s not about religion but about a relationship with Jesus Christ of Nazareth. Let's spread the gospel with love, for God is love!

[lydie]

What a testamony! I was more then 20 years in new age when I asked God the question "What is THE TRUTH"? Then out of nowhere video came to me about a guy in new age that ask a simmilar question and Holy Spirit came to him and he was born again. I was shocked. Video after video everything pointed to Jesus. I felt this
soft rain of his grace on me and I cryed so much. After that experience i started to watch everything about being born again, Holy Spirit, bible study. But then when I started to listen to some preacherse and read some verses great fear came over me. I was afraid of any mistake. The sad part was I came to Christ because I wanted that love, His presence, nothing was important anymore, just to be in the presance of God. So sad that fear of hell and judgment took hold of me. I just started to fear Him and it was geting so much harder to have realtionship with somone that you fear will send you to hell for every mistake. And the worst thing i became very anxious about everyone in my life going to hell. I bacame a Pharisee for a time. That didn't last because the state of my mind was so bad that i thought i will end up in mental institution. The thing is i always loved God but didn't know all the rules and how holy He was. But i always had converstions with Him like He is my earth father. I told Him everything, crayed before him, thanking Him for every good thing in my life. I loved people always, always listened to them and helped them no matter how bad they where. I had love for the worst sinner but religion took that from me. I know that without Christ I am on that cross in hell because there is no way I can save myself. I always known that. I just want Him, to talk with Him, to be in his presence. I can now love people the way it is natural to me, because I am my Fathers daughter. He put that love in me and i have so much compasion for every soul struguling in this world. It makes me very sad to see many christians talking nasty things about other people and they think that they are doing the right thing for the Lord. God help us see beyond ouer eyes with a new mind and a new heart. Blessings to you all. Jesus is Lord!

[LaSpastica]

I love this message. My mom died when I was a teen, and I became consumed with anger. I was a Christian, but I hated everyone. I blamed my problems on the world. I was especially hateful toward gay people. And one day out of nowhere, I heard God speak to me. He told me “it’s not ok for you to hate them. I love them.” I felt his love for them and for me, but I also felt the pain I caused Him by my hatred. I felt so ashamed, but I also felt His forgiveness. I cringe when I hear someone tell another person that they’re going to hell for whatever reason.

[nancymonahan]

As a former Pharisee, I rejoice with you over how God can get through the deepest self-deception to rescue us from destruction! I used to think I was a super-Christian when in reality I was trying to save myself. Thank you for sharing!

[mrsq]

thank you for sharing. I was so similar, I was so fed up trying to follow all the rules and so fearful of going to hell.
One day I said to myself ‘I give up, I can’t do it’ then it hit me, I can’t save myself. That’s why Jesus came to save us all, if we could save ourselves by being all religious and follow ALL the rules perfectly then Jesus didn’t need to come and die for us.
I try not to sin but I sin every day, whether in action or in thought.
Like the bible says we all fall short and not one is perfect. It’s about relationship not religion. God bless you

[karlaodhiambo]

"Jesus, I LOVE YOU;"
" NO! You DON'T!!!"
What a POWERFUL REVELATION giving via a DREAM!!!

The revelation here is that we MUST LOVE the LORD to the point where, we willingly live our lives . . . to GLORIFY HIM!!!☝🏽👏🏽🙏🏽🙌🏽

[robertfritchey]

The reason God answered my prayer so fast and the way he did, was because he was answering my sincerity. Even though I was angry at him at least I was sincere. Whether the prayer was right or wrong. Whether it was good or bad to challenge God. He answered me according to my sincerity. And because I was opening myself up to the truth whatever the truth might be. I thought this big hand was going to come out of the sky and cast me into hell because I had the audacity to challenge the big toe. But it was the opposite. God did not get mad and cast me into hell. Instead he started showing me his love which I felt I did not deserve. The angrier I got at God. The more love he showed me. Until I could no longer challenge him. I just knew beyond the shadow of a doubt that he was who he said he was. He is the creator of the Universe and the World.

[michaellau]

Deep Believer is my fav spiritual channel. It’s awakening me daily to my first love. Thanks Jennifer for truly loving Jesus and His church❤

[warrenbond]

As a Believer I always Pray for animals and children they are so innocent 🙏 love Your channel God Bless You All 💖 ♥️ ❤️ 🙏

[naomihook]

I got delivered from a Pharisee spirit two years ago. As soon as it left, I just felt so much love for people! I didn't realise how judgemental and self righteous I had been. Praise God!!

[Amariah]

I saw the Christ light glow in you Jennifer, and religious spirit is one of the hardest sin to overcome, you are that pure heart of humility, all glory to Jesus Christ, thank you for this message of Gods love to us.😇😇😇

[michaelmorgan]

So very true. I went from being saved at an early age, believing in God and the blood of Jesus Christ, to nearly losing my faith over the way the people in my home town, and in my churches, etc would judge me, simply because I was poor, disabled since birth, and struggle with chronic illnesses and bipolar issues, and therefore in their way of thinking, if you're not healthy and strong and rich, then you're a sinner, who has "sinned away the day of grace, because you're not rich with wealth to show and share as we are" and have that counted as blessing. So even as a young adult, still trusting in God, but struggling, I was put out of churches, especially when I was asking God at that time for a wife, (because back then, I lived with an aging Mom who had a motel and an apartment complex, and it was a way of supporting a family) but for that reason, I was deemed "unworthy" and "unsuitable" as potential husband material, to be associating with their adult daughters. At this time, as a result, it's as if the enemy won. I was treated differently everywhere I went, hated and repudiated by my so called fellow "Christians" and that, along with my failing health had me questioning my worth, and my faith in God that once was so strong.

Skipping ahead to age 40, I had met an older woman who claimed to be a believer, and she had took me under her wing, and was teaching me about her religion. (I later found out it is a cult). Her credibility fell apart when she had me move up here to Fresno, away from all my friends, support system, etc. And then, I met her criminal adult grandson, who five years ago, split my skull open with a large kitchen appliance over $15. He got a "slap on the wrist" for attempted murder, because this is California. But as I was laying in that ambulance that night, it came to me that could've been the last day of my life. Right then and there, I prioritized God, asking Jesus to step in, asking his forgiveness.

That was five years ago. I don't know what God's plan is, but yes I asked myself why am I still alive? I'm grateful I am!

[keilahmichalspann]

This made me tremble. Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. I KNOW I need to have love in my heart. Lord help!

[slimpickins]

A older homeless man walked up to me sitting in my car in an empty parking lot. I saw him coming from far away. I quickly got out some money to soothe my conscience. As he approached I rolled down the window to hand it to him. He never said a word or held out his hand. I said, "I love you man"....And GOD spoke loudly "NO YOU DON'T". I immediately broke and started crying. I couldn't hold the tears back because I knew I didn't love him. But more importantly I didn't love God. I sometimes think the man might have been an Angel he never spoke a word or took the money. I knew the whole thing was for me to show me My REAL condition.

[franklobue]

I had a similar dream and I asked for help and I was filled with the Holy Spirit. Realize all you need is the Holy Spirit and the Word not religion or a church social club..

[christ-upfellowship]

Thank you for hearing Jesus on this. I spend a lot of my time trying to bring people to Christ who were hurt deeply by the religious spirit you had. It makes people run away from Him. There is a balance...and I find it helpful to have The Holy Spirit lead my thoughts, words, and action. Thank you again beautiful, intelligent child of The Most High. This was wonderful to watch/hear. May God bless you and all you love always and forever. May God bless us all! ❤❤❤