I did an all-nighter before my dissertation + opening results

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😇 How old are you? 23
📝 What are you studying? I am set to start my MA in English Literature at Oxford this autumn.

[itsshayene]

I wanted to add that I feel like when you get to that point of panic and anxiety, where you feel like everything you’ve written is utter nonsense and the examiner won’t like it, it’s time to put everything away and go to sleep. It’s so easy to give into our inner critics but it’s very much a sign from our bodies that we need to slow down and trust ourselves. I’m glad you made this video!

[sundaygirl]

When I was doing my dissertation I would get feedback from my tutor and I wouldn’t look at it for days because I was convinced it would be “you’re a fraud, your work is bad, don’t even bother just quit” until my sister would force me to read it and the comments would be “awfully good writing, keep up the good work” and I would burst into tears. I know exactly how you feel

[Unknownne]

Dear Ruby,
6 Months ago I tried to take my own life and very nearly succeeded. When I became conscious in the hospital and during my 3 weeks in a psychiatric hospital, I realised the importance of making small, smart decisions every day and putting my mental health first. I cannot overstate your YouTube posts' importance in helping me with this process. I have, of course, used many other tools to reach this good state of mental health that I am in today but your posts HAVE been a part of that. Watching you in pain as you struggled with your own issues throughout this video I began to cry. I really want you to know how much you have helped me keep a calm, clear and simple approach to the challenges in my life. Thank you Ruby for being you

[lambsgreenpasture]

I don't think I breathed at all until the end, and then tears. Congratulations, Ruby.

[EruditeMeTonight]

That last minute, your silence, the murmuring, the camera to your family, the background score? I burst into tears. Thank you so much for your words and for sharing. You deserve nothing but success and happiness thank you thank you thank you

[jakecavendish]

It's definitley important to keep things in perspective. My friend was absolutely stressed about her master's thesis, passed it with the highest grade ever given and two weeks later died in a freak accident in a swimming pool without ever getting her results

[UmaimahX]

the only relatable comfy corner of the internet !

[michellejohnson]

As a uni lecturer who has gone through my own undergrad, Masters and PhD process I understand the anxiety, imposter syndrome and just general self-doubt that comes with higher academic study. You’ve given some great advice here. Congrats on your distinction and good luck with the PhD plans. 🎉 BUT please take your own advice here. It’s yet another levelling up game with the PhD and the epidemic of academic mental ill-health is very real. Look after your wellness throughout the process and it’ll be a far more positive experience to look back on after. I have no doubt you have what it takes to thrive as an academic but you deserve self-care through the process. This self-same advice goes to anyone reading this.

[alysiasmith]

My husband is in his last year of neuroscience studies. He and I both love your channel and wanted to say congratulations! We are so happy for you!

[jeremiahbok]

What a harrowing night, it was stressful just watching this. I'm so glad that, whatever the end result is, that miserable night is over with. Thank you for sharing this, this is very vulnerable. I truly hope you get a grade that reflects your dedication, but in the meantime, I also hope you're moving on and doing your best not to worry. The time to worry about your dissertation was when you were writing it. Now you're free, so please try to feel that freedom. I am so grateful for this reminder that we all doubt ourselves and how necessary it is to, as you say, trust ourselves. Sending all my fondness and respect.

[tatyplummer]

Dear God! I cried so hard right now...in the end... with you! I am speechless! Not only because I felt like I was there with you, but also because this video spoke with my soul.
I am pushing myself hard, praying, studying, and doing my best, but I can't shake this feeling that I am not enough... and you wrote those things in the end.
Thank you so much! For being who you are, sharing your journey with us, and fighting for what you want with such a lovely heart.
I wish I could give you a big hug. Congratulations, my dear!

[writtenbypoets]

As a person with chronic anxiety I felt so seen in these clips. The nervousness, the repetition of sentences and the need to perfect everything last minute. I am very grateful that you shared this with us. Thank you <3

[maikagiyama]

I'm usually a silent viewer, but I've been watching you since I started university (like 7-8 years ago, just changed my account over time) and I cried of emotion and happiness at your result. You have put so much work, love and enthusiasm in this assignment. Congratulations, you really deserve this.

I also wanted to say that I relate to this video a lot, not only in academics (I was kinda like this in my GCSE and uni exams), but also in non-academic situations. Thank you for being honest, open and transparent. Most people here use your videos to motivate ourselves, and you're a role model for people older than you as well, so we appreciate that you decided to share with us this valuable lesson. Hope you enjoy this summer holidays. You already look much happier and relaxed than in the last vlog, and that makes all of us happy.

[kevinsattarzade]

I doubted myself so much while writing my dissertation and put in endless hours of work. After I submitted it, my personal tutor emailed me a week later, urgently asking for a Zoom meeting. I was convinced I had done terribly—why else would she want to meet so soon? But when we got on the call, she told me it was such an amazing piece of work that even the second and third markers said it needs to be published. This experience taught me to always believe in myself. 💪

[shellsandwood]

Congratulations Ruby!! I've loved being on this journey with you. Thank you for allowing us a glimpse into your wonderful way of seeing the world.

[jamesonjabiru]

Im 52. Ive been doing that all my life. I absolutely kmow awhat youre going through. You made this old man teary. Bless.

[kritishdadu]

I have been with this channel when you started Exeter, I now am in the third-year of my law school and we've always got our FIRSTS together on our results! I and Ruby have legit grown together!

[duohensheng]

this is so powerful. I fully teared up at the end. it takes so much courage to be this vulnerable and this self-aware. congratulations Ruby, on the results but mostly on the person you are!!

[gloriamolina]

SO SO INCREDIBLY PROUD OF YOU RUBY!! I can't even describe how happy I am for you. Huge congratulations 🎉❤

[anerley]

Wow - massive congratulations! So well deserved, so much heart and soul you put into your work. So happy for you!