When God Calls: The Secret of the Separated Sheep

[danielbrowniel]

God likes good questions.
I wasn't feeling worthy at the time 5 years ago, and I prayed that I would be useful for the kingdom, whether or not I was worthy of it.
Then 2 years ago, I got a Rx for marijuana, and it messed me up mentally and spiritually.
I ended up spending an entire summer in the hospital, I stopped trusting everyone including my wife and almost divorced her.
For a moment one morning I was sober minded enough to pray and ask God for help.
All the crazy stuff stopped immediately, the loud inner voice, that sometimes felt foreign, was gone. I had creepy encounters with strangers on a regular basis at the time (almost all of them had occult tattoos) That stopped and they never happened again.
So I learned my lesson. We are helpless without God, completely helpless. I was raised knowing the Bible through and through, strong in apologetics and all that knowledge was useless when demonic influence had me by the nose. It was as if I were drunk and my judgement was unavailable. I read something in Daniel 11 about some in the end falling spiritually, to be refined and sometimes I wonder if that applies to me? A lot of the chapter looks like it's about a physical war, .. but that one part hints that, .. perhaps it is spiritual?